Crazy For You

"I am crazy for you "

well... it been sometime  i did not update my  blog ..and today i am here to  update my blog and my feeling .Recently  for this  2 month ,i  really busy on my career .In between that is alot   thing change and  happen . However , every single thing it has a meaning behind . 

In career  , i  did  facing  some stress that given by superior . However , the main issue  stress is  from my self . i always  compare my self  to others  people . When others people  doing  good then me , i will keeping asking my self , why i can be like them ? Why  he or she can do it better but why not me ? The  reason is because i don't want be  a loser or  i don't want to  let other people  look down on me as i am a lady that can't  have a good result . Everything it  just a beginning , i swear i will  keep on improve my self and prove the  result  to show everyone . 

Yes.. i gotta to admit that  i really  crazy for you .Recently  i having a  chance to get closer to you , to get know  you well .It was really nice and  thank god giving a  chance to  1 step close to know more about you . You really is a nice person where  teach and helping  me all the time when i need  help .Compare to others  people  i will say that i am the most  lucky person . Thank god  let me have a chance to meet you and get know more about you . It is a faith , i strongly believe this amazing  faith . Because this faith we meeting each other .

Right now  my  mind was  full of the  memories  that i having the fun bicker  with you . Perhaps  i too miss you  that why  the memories  are keep flashing in my head .Well , i  guess i really  crazy for you .Like the song sing by Adele -I am crazy for you. Here is the  lyric ... 

Found myself today

Singing out loud your name,

You said I'm crazy,

If I am I'm crazy for you.

Sometimes sitting in the dark

Wishing you were here

Turns me crazy,

But it's you who makes me lose my head.

And every time I'm meant to be acting sensible

You drift into my head

And turn me into a crumbling fool.

Tell me to run and I'll race,

If you want me to stop I'll freeze,

And if you want me gone, I'll leave,

Just hold me closer, baby,

And make me crazy for you.

Crazy for you.

Lately with this state I'm in

I can't help myself but spin.

I wish you'd come over,

Send me spinning closer to you.

My oh my, how my blood boils,

It's sweet taste for you,

Strips me down bare

And gets me into my favourite mood.

I keep on trying, fighting these feelings away,

But the more I do,

The crazier I turn into.

Pacing floors and opening doors,

Hoping you'll walk through

And save me boy,

Found myself today

Singing out loud your name,

You said I'm crazy,

If I am I'm crazy for you.

Sometimes sitting in the dark

Wishing you were here

Turns me crazy,

But it's you who makes me lose my head.

And every time I'm meant to be acting sensible

You drift into my head

And turn me into a crumbling fool.

Tell me to run and I'll race,

If you want me to stop I'll freeze,

And if you want me gone, I'll leave,

Just hold me closer, baby,

And make me crazy for you.

Crazy for you.

Lately with this state I'm in

I can't help myself but spin.

I wish you'd come over,

Send me spinning closer to you.

My oh my, how my blood boils,

It's sweet taste for you,

Strips me down bare

And gets me into my favourite mood.

I keep on trying, fighting these feelings away,

But the more I do,

The crazier I turn into.

Pacing floors and opening doors,

Hoping you'll walk through

And save me boy,

Because I'm too crazy for you.

Crazy for you

遇见了丑先生

最近的我，都很期待爱情的到来... 或许我想谈一场不会分手的恋爱.哈哈.我想这是每个女孩们想要的一场爱情.这三个月期间,我开始接触Chinese Metaphysics- Bazi (八字）。这让我开始慢慢的喜欢研究，去了解这门学问，也渐渐的开始分析自己的八字.也因八字我开始了我感情的另一页。也因八字我开始认识了他........

以往我对感情的东西我只能说是很玄.觉得是很难了解。 但是我开始发现其实只要有心去感觉，去体会 就有别一番的领悟。愛情和夢想都是很奇妙的東西，不用聽，不用說，不用被翻譯，就可以感受到。

我遇见了丑先生，感觉在他的身边我会笑的灿烂，有他在感觉会比较踏实 .也有一种感觉叫安全感。他总是逗着我闹，惹我笑 也教会我一些知识.谢谢让我遇见你XD 

是什麼 讓我遇見這樣的你   ，是什麼 讓我不再懷疑自己  ，是什麼 讓我不再害怕失去
在這茫茫人海裡 我不要變得透明。

珍惜眼前人

珍惜眼前人！！！！！ yesterday noon , i received a call, nd this call totally make me shock and not able accept my friend have leave us.  A young pretty, nice girl just leave us .

life is unpredictable,  we never know what will going happen in next moment . Human always have a funny thought, they'll appreciate  when they've losing  someone.  

in this moment i still not able the fact of my friend has leave us .:(  R.I.P   GOOD BYE MY DEAR FRIEND. I WILL ALWAYS  MISS U.

Fallin' For You

                            "Fallin' For You"-COLBIE CAILLAT LYRICS

I don't know but I think I maybe
Fallin' for you dropping so quickly
Maybe I should keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I know you better

I am trying not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life and now I found you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm falling for you.
I'm falling for you.

As I'm standing here and you hold my hand
Pull me towards you and we start to dance

All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling.
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life and now I found you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I'm fallin' for you.

Oh, I just can't take it
My heart is racing
Emotions keep spinning out.

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life and now I found you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I'm fallin' for you.

I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I'm fallin' for you.

Oh
Oh no no
Oh

Oh, I'm falling for you

**i like this song  right now because this is what i feel now. :)

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Thing happen for a reason . Thing happen  it could be a  lesson to learn or  realization  for you . 

Learn to be  strong !!! Learn to define who is real friend and fake friend . 

Today's XD

Today I go and visit my lovely grandma. But she makes me shock!!!!  I was just keep laughing and laughing for few minutes. 

Well, my grandma asking me when I going to marriage?? Is a good question to me, because I had no idea for it? I told my grandma, I still single don't have any boyfriend yet. I still haven get meet my prince.... still searching my princes. Suddenly , my  grandma using a  serious tone to chat  with me , she just wish  to see me get marriage when she still alive . She just hoping the day will come early.

My grandma are so aggressive pushing to get marriage as soon as I can, I suddenly feel the stress from her. But after chatting with her, I totally understand her feeling, why she says so. 

I'm 24 these years. And I believe  , god have choose the best  man for me .And he still writing the ending story for me  XD .  When timing is right, I will get to meet my Mr. Right. May be he already appears around me, just need a right timing, right place to start the spark.  

Anyway, just be myself and do what I should do now :) 

我的久违部落格

# 是什麼 讓我遇見這樣的你

是什麼 讓我不再懷疑自己

是什麼 讓我不再害怕失去

在這茫茫人海裡 我不要變得透明 #

最近的我爱上这首歌- 白安 -是什麼讓我遇見這樣的你.  我非常喜欢，但却说不出原因。哈哈。。。。或许这首歌唱出我的心声，我也不知道。 但我相信每一个人在茫茫人海里，都不想变得透明， 不想被忽略。

提早祝大家4月14日黑色情人节快乐。 没情人的也祝你们转角遇到爱 XD 顺便也祝自己转角遇到爱！ 哈哈哈哈哈哈（无聊）XD

我的久违部落格，我会尽量抽时间更新我的部落格。 哈哈。。。。再见 XD

a Wonder birthDay =)

 Wow!!  been  long time  never  blog .  recently  i more on weibo instead  in  here.  Weibo  is much  more thing  to  explore  . HAha .....

This years , my  birthday  celebration is was amazing .Because  had  you  guys celebrating for me . i  feel touching  because  i know  that  everyone of  you  is  busy , but  still  take the time  out to celebrate for me . really appreciate it . 5 of us   it has been  long time  never  gather together . hahaha .....let's  catch a  photo  for  memory   .

my lovely sisters, even thought we all  busy  for our life , but still we  had   each others .
opps !!! u see , 5 of us  wearing  red colour  shirt without noticed 

PLAN B restaurants ,  i been  waiting  for long time ,  finally  i had  a chance to  dine in there 

and this  time  again  celebrate my  birthday  . hahahaha ....

thks  you  my  brother and sister  .what a  nice  dinner  in  here , of course  must  have 

this  two  person , because of this  2 person the night  become more fun .

 Again  million thank  to  you   guys =)  

hmn.... the taste  is  good , and have alot  of  vege , i like  it .  hahaha 

我的歌声里

沒有一點點防備，也沒有一絲顧慮 你就這樣出現在我的世界裡，帶給我驚喜，情不自已 可是你偏又這樣，在我不知不覺中 悄悄的消失，從我的世界裡，沒有音訊，剩下的只是回憶 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 還記得我們曾經，肩並肩一起走過，那段繁華巷口 儘管你我是陌生人，是過路人，但彼此還是感覺到了對方的 一個眼神，一個心跳.... 一種意想不到的快樂，好像是 一場夢境，命中註定 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 世界之大為何我們相遇 難道是緣分 難道是天意... 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡

人生过客

人生如旅行，每到一站都会有匆匆的人群，不断的下车，上车。下车是为了此时的风景，上车是为了彼时的风景。我在这旅行车上，不断的有人在我身边坐下，起身离开，也许你是我旅途的过客，也许是我一段路程的伴侣，只是我们终在某处，总有一人会起身离开。

谢谢每一位到来我的人生， 因为有你们我的人生才变得不一样，变的更丰富！也因为有你们我变得更坚强，更都、多姿多彩 ！ 未来我的人生还会继续的发光发热，更精彩！！  因为这就是我的人生 =） 

baby tonight ...

Baby tonight tonight

I don’t wanna be alone

Baby tonight tonight

Everything will be alright

So baby tonight

I don’t wanna let you go

失败是爱情的陪葬品

long time never self capture . well ,  good to say that the skill is still that . hahaha  , self  praise again . recently  alot   people  break up  and  get married . And  yet  yesterday  night ,  when i  go for  clubbing , my  friend  suddenly  emotional out of control .  she  damn  freaking  hurt  because  that  break up  with  her  EX .  In the  journey  of life   human always  will  get   facing  alot  up  and  down . but  no matter  how  pain  is the  process , time will  prove everything  and  it will  recover soon .Well ,   my  philosophy

失败是爱情的陪葬品!! let's focus on career . cause  Love  doesn't feed  you and  make you survive in this  world .  You need   have   money to survive . And  Love also need  Money . why i say  so , because  when  a couple go for dating need money . hahahah/ =)  anyway  , my dears  friend  focus on what you should do . God  already  match a man  for you , what you need to do is  wait him  come to you . =)

MIracle

Wow !  Fantastic  Baby !  this is my  miracle  ball !  Well ,  actually i  just  back from  camp . This camp  letting me  found back my  dream . In the same time  giving  more energy  to  chase my  dream , do to more . Not  only that  , this  is a  big  meaning  camp for me ,  this is  my another  turning point in my  life . and   is time to change  ! Gen X  United  Family , thanks   you all   giving me, and  supporting me to walk  all the way . But , i need to  thank to my mentor Huey Ling . she never  give up on  me , always here for me and supporting me and  guiding to me all the  time . I  know that  she  is waiting me  come  back with  miracle happen . And  i  promise to you , i  coming back with  miracle  happen .   i  will shine  at  Gen X United  , showing  everyone , Who am i !!!  i will be  a top  speaker  in the house  !   Action is  everything, i will prove it will action !  Belief  in my self , belief  with my  team  one  day  we will  hand holding hand and  walk to  standing on the peak and  say  financial freedom . For  People  doesn't  believe on me , look down on me , or  even  laughing  my dream ,but  i will not  care  how you  guys  look at me , Cause  i  know   that   i can  achieve my  dream , and enjoying my life .  Guys see you  on the  the peak !!!  i m  gonna shine at the  sky =)

fianlly

well,  finally i  voice out  my feeling  , and  settle  down  everything .  know   that  is a  very  hurt  process . but i  expected . And  know is time to  tie-up  everything  to  move on  my life .MY  life  have alot  of part  is waiting for me to complete it . i had no time to  waste it .  I know  i was injured   now , but i  will make sure  i recover  fast and  back to  my platform and  rock the world . my  babes  no worry  me  ,  but  thks   you all be  with me  all the time  while i  down .  TQ .

able woman vs masterful mistress

yesterday  dinner  with my  friend  yet  is she is my  method as well .  Thru out  the conversation  she make  me have alot  of realization  . Realize that  i need  to lower  down my  ego ,  put  down  my  past  experience and  start  from  begging . after  having  dinner with  her ,  i more clear  with my  road , my direction  . I know where is my  destination . .Leaving is not  mean  that  i  totaly  leave  out  everything , but  just that  i went to  grow up my self and  back to  network  to boom  again . Deeply  thinking  am i  suit for being able woman   or being  a masterful mistress ??? A good  question to asking my self . Alot  people  say  that i  m  more alike a  able  woman  instead  of  masterful mistress. Yet ,  i remember  1 of my friend  said that  be a masterful mistress is  always better den be a  able  woman . Because  masterful mistress able  make their  carreer  success and have a  happiness love . I don't know  end  up i will fall into which  categories . but the main  point  is  i need  gain  back thing i been lost  for a long time  .

hold me tight

wow ..  i miss that  nitez .  the  fun   night . there was long time that i never  go  for club and  dance  like no body .It was  a  joyful night . drink and  dance with  friend . in the  late  night , when  we are almost  leaving ,  you suddenly hold my hand tight , i was  stunt . i wish too ask you . but  in  the end i don't  dare to ask you.  i know  you have litter  bit  feeling on me , and i know  you need time  to  recover  from past . any way  i will wait for u . 

誰都知雙手可緊扣　不依不捨的背後
這個信念有多溫柔　從害怕會被擁有
直到氣力不夠　十隻手指終於找得到對手

泳儿-喜欢一个人好累

昨天你送我一个笑脸
今天你经过了我身边
每天你这样一举一动
都影响我的悲伤喜悦
昨天你多看了我一眼
今天我有些心不在焉
哪天我才会有勇气勇敢面对
暗恋喜欢一个人好美
想像你轻轻搂我的肩
走在人挤人的街
抓紧你的手甜蜜无限
暗恋喜欢一个人好累
流泪在数不尽的黑夜
想念变成了习惯
想你一遍遍你却好远
如果你不当我是朋友
而是其他重要的角色
是否我就可以占有你每个笑容
喜欢一个人真的好累

complicated feeling

Well, today I damn easily emotional . especially with a person that I had no idea . I’m not sure what friend told me is true or fault. and I not even sure what is mine now, what is true answer behind . like my dad say , I m treating everyone as my friend , good with them, in the end I a person who will get hurt .i really don’t know how to describe my feeling now . I keep on thinking the past memories with you , thinking that are we two have chance become a couple or we just maintain the brother sister relationship?? Because I know that last time you really treating me very good and more than others treat me . and somehow I wish I can go back the time when we working together . I miss the joyful and sweet time with you , I can say that you really do a lot thing for me , although is just a small thing, but it mean a lot for me . Angelice told me that we two very shady , and she say that the way you treat me is very different , and bla ..bla… in that moment I was stunt and I can’t believe on it , and I told her , that he treat me well is because of I’m her sister that why like this , but angelice say that ‘s not a answer . but still I m not dare to think more and go 1 more step, I scare to get hurt , I afraid to face it .

lastly, my career , Inside my deeper heart , I want to success , I want show other who am I ? I want to prove to others that who look me down , make my parent feel proud of me . I m just want to shine at the sky !! but I know I lost myself , I like standing t-junction not dare to make a move . am I scare ? am I lose faith ? or what ? I just damn freaking scare to move , like my dad said , because I getting a lot of hurt and not even release out , that why it cause thing happen like nowadays .well .. I need to find balance , a balance of my life . so that return to chili girl and rock the word . I can do it , nick vjuick can , I must can . cause I want financial freedom , enjoy my lifestyle with my family =) . cheers I can do it .

everyone said.....

Well.. everyone say that me and him are like couple . and my lovely siss hope we can together . at fist . I was told my self , me and him just like a brother and sister . that’s all . cause I know that he had a gf . but until just now I only that he break up with his’s gf. And also just know that he was like me too, well… this is what my friend said . I m not sure this is true or not , because I all the time treat him like brother . but everyone sad that , he treat me more den a sister . to be honest, I had no idea , I duno what is my feeling now ? just know that is complicated . I keep on flash back previous time and think on it . yes, I admit I miss the fun time with him . I admit that , that is no one , treat me so well like him . all the guy treat meWell.. everyone say that me and him are like couple . and my lovely siss hope we can together . at fist . I was told my self , me and him just like a brother and sister . that’s all . cause I know that he had a gf . but until just now I only that he break up with his’s gf. And also just know that he was like me too, well… this is what my friend said . I m not sure this is true or not , because I all the time treat him like brother . but everyone sad that , he treat me more den a sister . to be honest, I had no idea , I duno what is my feeling now ? just know that is complicated . I keep on flash back previous time and think on it . yes, I admit I miss the fun time with him . I admit that , that is no one , treat me so well like him . all the guy treat me like a brother. Only him is different from others. But this , can prove anything ?? I had no idea. Well.. just let it be , as l know , I need to focus my career – Qnet . cause I need finiacial freedom . I want my family have a better life and I need to prove to people that who look me down . like a brother. Only him is different from others. But this , can prove anything ?? I had no idea. Well.. just let it be , as l know , I need to focus my career – Qnet . cause I need finiacial freedom . I want my family have a better life and I need to prove to people that who look me down .

on call 36 hours

recently  i watched  on call 36 . for me  is a best  movie. coz is a meaning  full  drama  from tvb . and i  get inspired from this drama too . the most  impact  and most inspired me , which is  the  part where  by  ben and  Micheal conversation .  

he say that  ( Chinese ) :  咬紧牙根面对自己的失败，面对所有人的目光，重新再来然后告诉自己，你虽然犯过错，可是你仍然可以成为一位好医生，或许你的过错所以比任何让更明白如何当一位好医生。 well  this  sentences, giving me a good inspired . and  reflected  what is my  mistake and motivate me to  go on .  face it   and overcome it . yeah!! i can become more better !!