a Wonder birthDay =)

 Wow!!  been  long time  never  blog .  recently  i more on weibo instead  in  here.  Weibo  is much  more thing  to  explore  . HAha .....

This years , my  birthday  celebration is was amazing .Because  had  you  guys celebrating for me . i  feel touching  because  i know  that  everyone of  you  is  busy , but  still  take the time  out to celebrate for me . really appreciate it . 5 of us   it has been  long time  never  gather together . hahaha .....let's  catch a  photo  for  memory   .

my lovely sisters, even thought we all  busy  for our life , but still we  had   each others .
opps !!! u see , 5 of us  wearing  red colour  shirt without noticed 

PLAN B restaurants ,  i been  waiting  for long time ,  finally  i had  a chance to  dine in there 

and this  time  again  celebrate my  birthday  . hahahaha ....

thks  you  my  brother and sister  .what a  nice  dinner  in  here , of course  must  have 

this  two  person , because of this  2 person the night  become more fun .

 Again  million thank  to  you   guys =)  

hmn.... the taste  is  good , and have alot  of  vege , i like  it .  hahaha 

我的歌声里

沒有一點點防備，也沒有一絲顧慮 你就這樣出現在我的世界裡，帶給我驚喜，情不自已 可是你偏又這樣，在我不知不覺中 悄悄的消失，從我的世界裡，沒有音訊，剩下的只是回憶 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 還記得我們曾經，肩並肩一起走過，那段繁華巷口 儘管你我是陌生人，是過路人，但彼此還是感覺到了對方的 一個眼神，一個心跳.... 一種意想不到的快樂，好像是 一場夢境，命中註定 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 世界之大為何我們相遇 難道是緣分 難道是天意... 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡 你存在，我深深的腦海裡，我的夢裡，我的心裡，我的歌聲裡

人生过客

人生如旅行，每到一站都会有匆匆的人群，不断的下车，上车。下车是为了此时的风景，上车是为了彼时的风景。我在这旅行车上，不断的有人在我身边坐下，起身离开，也许你是我旅途的过客，也许是我一段路程的伴侣，只是我们终在某处，总有一人会起身离开。

谢谢每一位到来我的人生， 因为有你们我的人生才变得不一样，变的更丰富！也因为有你们我变得更坚强，更都、多姿多彩 ！ 未来我的人生还会继续的发光发热，更精彩！！  因为这就是我的人生 =） 

baby tonight ...

Baby tonight tonight

I don’t wanna be alone

Baby tonight tonight

Everything will be alright

So baby tonight

I don’t wanna let you go

失败是爱情的陪葬品

long time never self capture . well ,  good to say that the skill is still that . hahaha  , self  praise again . recently  alot   people  break up  and  get married . And  yet  yesterday  night ,  when i  go for  clubbing , my  friend  suddenly  emotional out of control .  she  damn  freaking  hurt  because  that  break up  with  her  EX .  In the  journey  of life   human always  will  get   facing  alot  up  and  down . but  no matter  how  pain  is the  process , time will  prove everything  and  it will  recover soon .Well ,   my  philosophy

失败是爱情的陪葬品!! let's focus on career . cause  Love  doesn't feed  you and  make you survive in this  world .  You need   have   money to survive . And  Love also need  Money . why i say  so , because  when  a couple go for dating need money . hahahah/ =)  anyway  , my dears  friend  focus on what you should do . God  already  match a man  for you , what you need to do is  wait him  come to you . =)

MIracle

Wow !  Fantastic  Baby !  this is my  miracle  ball !  Well ,  actually i  just  back from  camp . This camp  letting me  found back my  dream . In the same time  giving  more energy  to  chase my  dream , do to more . Not  only that  , this  is a  big  meaning  camp for me ,  this is  my another  turning point in my  life . and   is time to change  ! Gen X  United  Family , thanks   you all   giving me, and  supporting me to walk  all the way . But , i need to  thank to my mentor Huey Ling . she never  give up on  me , always here for me and supporting me and  guiding to me all the  time . I  know that  she  is waiting me  come  back with  miracle happen . And  i  promise to you , i  coming back with  miracle  happen .   i  will shine  at  Gen X United  , showing  everyone , Who am i !!!  i will be  a top  speaker  in the house  !   Action is  everything, i will prove it will action !  Belief  in my self , belief  with my  team  one  day  we will  hand holding hand and  walk to  standing on the peak and  say  financial freedom . For  People  doesn't  believe on me , look down on me , or  even  laughing  my dream ,but  i will not  care  how you  guys  look at me , Cause  i  know   that   i can  achieve my  dream , and enjoying my life .  Guys see you  on the  the peak !!!  i m  gonna shine at the  sky =)

fianlly

well,  finally i  voice out  my feeling  , and  settle  down  everything .  know   that  is a  very  hurt  process . but i  expected . And  know is time to  tie-up  everything  to  move on  my life .MY  life  have alot  of part  is waiting for me to complete it . i had no time to  waste it .  I know  i was injured   now , but i  will make sure  i recover  fast and  back to  my platform and  rock the world . my  babes  no worry  me  ,  but  thks   you all be  with me  all the time  while i  down .  TQ .

able woman vs masterful mistress

yesterday  dinner  with my  friend  yet  is she is my  method as well .  Thru out  the conversation  she make  me have alot  of realization  . Realize that  i need  to lower  down my  ego ,  put  down  my  past  experience and  start  from  begging . after  having  dinner with  her ,  i more clear  with my  road , my direction  . I know where is my  destination . .Leaving is not  mean  that  i  totaly  leave  out  everything , but  just that  i went to  grow up my self and  back to  network  to boom  again . Deeply  thinking  am i  suit for being able woman   or being  a masterful mistress ??? A good  question to asking my self . Alot  people  say  that i  m  more alike a  able  woman  instead  of  masterful mistress. Yet ,  i remember  1 of my friend  said that  be a masterful mistress is  always better den be a  able  woman . Because  masterful mistress able  make their  carreer  success and have a  happiness love . I don't know  end  up i will fall into which  categories . but the main  point  is  i need  gain  back thing i been lost  for a long time  .

hold me tight

wow ..  i miss that  nitez .  the  fun   night . there was long time that i never  go  for club and  dance  like no body .It was  a  joyful night . drink and  dance with  friend . in the  late  night , when  we are almost  leaving ,  you suddenly hold my hand tight , i was  stunt . i wish too ask you . but  in  the end i don't  dare to ask you.  i know  you have litter  bit  feeling on me , and i know  you need time  to  recover  from past . any way  i will wait for u . 

誰都知雙手可緊扣　不依不捨的背後
這個信念有多溫柔　從害怕會被擁有
直到氣力不夠　十隻手指終於找得到對手

泳儿-喜欢一个人好累

昨天你送我一个笑脸
今天你经过了我身边
每天你这样一举一动
都影响我的悲伤喜悦
昨天你多看了我一眼
今天我有些心不在焉
哪天我才会有勇气勇敢面对
暗恋喜欢一个人好美
想像你轻轻搂我的肩
走在人挤人的街
抓紧你的手甜蜜无限
暗恋喜欢一个人好累
流泪在数不尽的黑夜
想念变成了习惯
想你一遍遍你却好远
如果你不当我是朋友
而是其他重要的角色
是否我就可以占有你每个笑容
喜欢一个人真的好累

complicated feeling

Well, today I damn easily emotional . especially with a person that I had no idea . I’m not sure what friend told me is true or fault. and I not even sure what is mine now, what is true answer behind . like my dad say , I m treating everyone as my friend , good with them, in the end I a person who will get hurt .i really don’t know how to describe my feeling now . I keep on thinking the past memories with you , thinking that are we two have chance become a couple or we just maintain the brother sister relationship?? Because I know that last time you really treating me very good and more than others treat me . and somehow I wish I can go back the time when we working together . I miss the joyful and sweet time with you , I can say that you really do a lot thing for me , although is just a small thing, but it mean a lot for me . Angelice told me that we two very shady , and she say that the way you treat me is very different , and bla ..bla… in that moment I was stunt and I can’t believe on it , and I told her , that he treat me well is because of I’m her sister that why like this , but angelice say that ‘s not a answer . but still I m not dare to think more and go 1 more step, I scare to get hurt , I afraid to face it .

lastly, my career , Inside my deeper heart , I want to success , I want show other who am I ? I want to prove to others that who look me down , make my parent feel proud of me . I m just want to shine at the sky !! but I know I lost myself , I like standing t-junction not dare to make a move . am I scare ? am I lose faith ? or what ? I just damn freaking scare to move , like my dad said , because I getting a lot of hurt and not even release out , that why it cause thing happen like nowadays .well .. I need to find balance , a balance of my life . so that return to chili girl and rock the word . I can do it , nick vjuick can , I must can . cause I want financial freedom , enjoy my lifestyle with my family =) . cheers I can do it .

everyone said.....

Well.. everyone say that me and him are like couple . and my lovely siss hope we can together . at fist . I was told my self , me and him just like a brother and sister . that’s all . cause I know that he had a gf . but until just now I only that he break up with his’s gf. And also just know that he was like me too, well… this is what my friend said . I m not sure this is true or not , because I all the time treat him like brother . but everyone sad that , he treat me more den a sister . to be honest, I had no idea , I duno what is my feeling now ? just know that is complicated . I keep on flash back previous time and think on it . yes, I admit I miss the fun time with him . I admit that , that is no one , treat me so well like him . all the guy treat meWell.. everyone say that me and him are like couple . and my lovely siss hope we can together . at fist . I was told my self , me and him just like a brother and sister . that’s all . cause I know that he had a gf . but until just now I only that he break up with his’s gf. And also just know that he was like me too, well… this is what my friend said . I m not sure this is true or not , because I all the time treat him like brother . but everyone sad that , he treat me more den a sister . to be honest, I had no idea , I duno what is my feeling now ? just know that is complicated . I keep on flash back previous time and think on it . yes, I admit I miss the fun time with him . I admit that , that is no one , treat me so well like him . all the guy treat me like a brother. Only him is different from others. But this , can prove anything ?? I had no idea. Well.. just let it be , as l know , I need to focus my career – Qnet . cause I need finiacial freedom . I want my family have a better life and I need to prove to people that who look me down . like a brother. Only him is different from others. But this , can prove anything ?? I had no idea. Well.. just let it be , as l know , I need to focus my career – Qnet . cause I need finiacial freedom . I want my family have a better life and I need to prove to people that who look me down .

on call 36 hours

recently  i watched  on call 36 . for me  is a best  movie. coz is a meaning  full  drama  from tvb . and i  get inspired from this drama too . the most  impact  and most inspired me , which is  the  part where  by  ben and  Micheal conversation .  

he say that  ( Chinese ) :  咬紧牙根面对自己的失败，面对所有人的目光，重新再来然后告诉自己，你虽然犯过错，可是你仍然可以成为一位好医生，或许你的过错所以比任何让更明白如何当一位好医生。 well  this  sentences, giving me a good inspired . and  reflected  what is my  mistake and motivate me to  go on .  face it   and overcome it . yeah!! i can become more better !!

all is well

somehow i really  don't understand , what is she  thinking ? well... she just make pisses off .i really had  nothing to say  toward  her  attitude . well.. what to do ?  what  i can say is  .. just too self  fish. i can sacrifice everything  toward  everything , may be  there is ur  dream , u try to  protect  it and not  going to  pay for it . well , is ok .  i  just keep  doing it . all is  well! =)

FUCK OFF

THAT 'S ALL ,  PLS  FUCK OFF. I M  DAMN  HATE IT K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

拜金女

那些年。。。。  突然间 我有很多的回忆，很多的 往事 很想把它放映的去回味。 很多的甜酸苦辣的回忆。这一些都是让我成长的过程，也让我学习及明白很多的东西。 虽然，过程中， 我有泪有笑。 也失去了一段珍贵的友情。我到底这么了， 脑海很混乱。不管， 现在的我 ， 只要 能往上爬， 我都会不惜一切的付出。 我没有后退！ 拜金女王 说过： 宁可在audi车哭， 也不要在toyota 放空！！ 做拜金女， 没什么不好，  至少她知道，他要怎样的生活，努力的为她的人生奋斗=）

i m lost . =(

i don't  know  how to  describe  my  feeling  now , i feel  damn  lost  even thought  i  know what should   i do  for my  planning .  but  the  fact  now  is .. i cant  . what's  wrong  with me ??   fuck.. i damn  hate this kind of  feeling . what should i  do now , so that i can  be back  the chili padi girl ?  the feeling standing on the  t- junction is   suck.  God ,  pls  give  me some  hits  to   move  on .  i  tired and  , i had no idea to  continue   my path .

fuck !! i want financial freedom!!!!!

well,  life still need to  go  on , i cant   always  be like this   . i need to  double  up my  speed . i cant  take my  let myself  leave  so behind .i  cant   stand  with it , i want  show to  everyone my  result , my capabilities. to be honest  that  i  been slow  time for  some period dy .  NOW , i need to  make a  decisions and make a big move toward  my dream!!! i don't care  i  suffer   am i now ,  i  just want to   prove to  everyone  i can !! i  want    financial freedom!!!!!  

我的心里还有不甘心，所以我不会那么容易放弃！！！

new  starting , and  i want rock my world  !!!! i  will mean  it  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  pass is  pass,  just  let  it  at  pass, and  start a  brand new  page  for my life !!! whatever  memory  , no matter  sad or  happy - i will keep in  until  heren put inside  my  deep heart . new life , new starting is waiting  for me =)

♥ My Farewell ....88 PH ♥

well,  yesterday  is my farewell  dinner  with 3 close friend at  sushi zammai . well this 3 person which is the most  closet to me in this  company . And my  relationship with them like bro& sis .  a  small  gathering  for  about  3  hours  make me  feel  like don't want to  end  , but still everyone need to  back home  . 

♥  4 of us  ♥   ...  =)

well, to be  honest to say that , the  person   who most i   not willing  to  leave  is my  brother !!! why  say  so ... cause  too many  memory  within  you and me  . cause  you  teaching  alot thing  to me  and  also  gave  alot  advice while i  don't know how to  continue solving  my  problem . and thks bro  that  always  giving me  love care  and  i appreciated what  u had done to me. from my  bottom  heard  ,  thank  you  bro =) without you  my  life  at PH here also not  that  fun .   lol .. i 'm sound like  leaving here, and  shift to another  place and  not  coming back to  malaysia. Anyway  i will  miss  every single  memory with  you all .  those  funny thing i 'll  never  forget about  it .   keep  in touch  my  dears!!!   =) i miss you  all , especially you ...♥

mAD

yoyoyoyo...  today is  nian  chu  4  dy .  wishing everyone  gong   xi fatt  cai  .any way  what ever   holiday   what ever   joyful  

have to  stop in  , and start a  brand  new  years  , and  give a big bang  for  begin  year =) 

 i really  need a big move   to p rove to  everyone   who am i  !!!!  

and  show them  the real  chili padi  girl !!!

 yes  i can , yes  i will ,  yes  i must !!!

let  be  MAD

happy cny

cny is   around !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  wowwww.. but still;  haven get feel of cny  . well is doesn't matter. as long as  this  cny  can   have  fun with   people   that  u like and love . ^^   well   this cny is another   brand  starting   for me ,  coz  i want make a  new  different  from  this years , i want  make a boom  , boom to  eveyone    and shine to everyone   =)  i want  earn alot  of money !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  i want  bank  account have  5 digit income !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! let's  huat together  

huat!!!!!!!!!!ar !!!!!!!!!!!

my lovely bro

well ... my  lovely  bro , after  so long  never see you and talk you. so  finally  today have a chance  chatting 

you still like  last time , always  kacau me  while people  is not  that  .lol.. but  still appreciate  that  your love and care  regarding the  i nearly  get  RXXXX!!!!!  well,  and i still need to  thank to people who  help me on this case , giving me love & care too . blek . well  ,  bro  for me  u memang  very diam , but  once  u speak it can  kill people .lol .  take care  lo , bro  see u next time   =)  i will miss you  hahahaha. 

waiting for ur call =)

i m  waiting  for  your call !!!  i duno why  i just want hear  your voice and  just want u  give me the  warm  to me now .  well ... i know that   promise in the end  it will never   turn to  be .  man  never  keep  the  promise  !!! well, wat to do . go and sleep la.   

new year

i watched  this movie  with my  old friend at middle of  night .i like this movie story   is very meaning full. well, is reflected to  everyone . and i  learned alot from this movie .  new  years  eve  is  a  night  i should  think and  flack back  the whole  years what i had  done , where is my  mistake to  make my  next year to  more better . this movie is  mentioning hope, every thing  is  possible , if you  willing make it  happen . 2012 is a  brand new years  for me  , and  i will  be a  better  person  den last  years and   keep  on frighting for new  year!!!  i just want  achieved my  dream  , my goal  .  i 'll  never  give  a  fuck on  excuse  that  blocking to  achieved my dream . and also  is time to  do my  new  years  resolution    2012 !!!!