i just miss you , lol............... >.< blek

well,  i dont  know  why  , i wish that   this moment  i can   beside  you   . just  look at you  and  give you  some  motivation   kind of  feeling .  lol  . so how  i think i always  think too much . but  i hope  that  will be real in  one day . my  mind   just   is  all about  you ,  i just  want to  be your side ,  silently  . that  's  enough .

i just miss you  ,  lol............... >.< blek

complicated feeling

i  hate  the complicated feeling,. i   duno why   and since when i  have this kind of feeling !!!!  i hate  this   very  much !! i wish i could  deleted it  now. and i  sorry  , i m sorry  that i  hurt  you.  i hope  you  just  4get what i  had  make you angry . sis  i m sorry .

really  dont know,  in side my deep heart  i had  a  lot thing which  stuck  in side , and i wish  i can  deleted  and trash out !!!  keep inside my heart  is damn  freaking  pain .  OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  i just   need a shoulder and a  pair  of  ear  for  this moment .   the usual  ear that  always lend to me , is  gone , i need  replacement  for it .

Sis , i' m  so sorry . T.T   pls  4give me . i  love you .

dik just want to say tq

well, is  glad that to  meet you . what  should  say is , this  call  "yuan  fen"  .  but  is nice to be  friend with  you and  be your  dik ^^ i admit that  , i had  have this kind treat  from a  brother . is really so sweet and i appreciated it  alot  , even thought  is not  a big  stuff , but somehow  small thing i also  appropriated . well,  i  really  dont  know  , how you  treat  others , may be   i  just  look alike  with your  sister at   hometown. that why  i  have special  treat . lol.  but who care ,  i just  enjoy  and like the way  you  sayang . blek  some how  i  just  feel that  i  m the person who  have  this  specially  .

brother , i miss you

well,  after this few day  i had  confirm that , we two  just are  bro  and sis  relationship .  well,   u're   a person who  love and care to  person around you .  some how i  just feel that  i  glad that  being  your sister. ^^ somehow  i   wish you  share all my  story  to you , and i think that  you  will be another   second person who i really trust and share problem  with . bro  , don't  dump  me away , cause  i already  get  use  with the way  you treat me , cause  currently   no 1 can  give me this kind of  treat  like you  giving to me. i wish  i can   everyday  get sayang  from you .i just miss the way  you  touch my head , the way  you  kacau me . well,  i wish the  following  month  is  reaching  soon so that i can  enjoy  back the memory  like  last time .

just because of you

i dont know  why , today   when i  hear that   have a chance to fright back to  HQ to working,  i was  damn happy .  i really dont know why ?  may be  is because  of you , i think so ,  wish that  i back to  HQ  working , cause  i miss the  the  working  life  with you . in the same time , i need to   apply this back to  my network  . the  passionate   and the  goal , clear with  what  i want  and  just  fright for it .  i wish  i can  back to   HQ  next month ,  yet  at here  i also  learn  alot  thing form   team  manager over .  well,  i 'll appreciated all  . cause  they  make me  who  i am  today ^^ . remember  all the feeling ,  i will  keep this   inside  my  heart  and  keep on moving  .

勢在必行

我以為我已經累了　無法再回頭　沒有目標的翅膀
我試著飛越那扇窗　溫度卻讓身體再次感到很沮喪
我微笑不是假裝　我追是因為渴望
我奮不顧身奔向　那一道陽光
我跌倒是種成長　我哭是一種釋放
我存在不是假象　我不管　我倔強

為愛付出瘋狂　為夢受一點傷
為保護我的信仰　變得更堅強
為執著橫衝直撞　為你說了點謊
別說我一直找不到方向
再為愛付出瘋狂　為夢受一點傷
為保護我的信仰　變得更堅強
為執著橫衝直撞　為你說了點謊
為別人看我不屑目光　昂首飛翔

out of control

i have to  keep   controlling  not  to think about  you ,  not  always come to  chat  to you . i dont want  other  peoples and  you   misunderstand  that   i  fall in love  u.   is  very  hard to   controlling , but still  have too do it. i know  that today  i  broke down  what i had promise  to myself , that no to  call you , chat to u   . just let be .  but  i found  out that  , i m fails  .T.T and i called u in the end . so  now  i  cannot repeat  it . i must keep  my promise !!!

sick 9 liao

 i m  sick !!!  i  just  look like this  girl . is  really  fuck  that  ,  being sick. i hate to  be sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well,  when  i sick   , i tot   of  u  may be will send  some  love and care to  me,  but   may be  i  expediting too much form you .  well,  i  still  i will passing  the virus around , so that  my  sick will  recover  more  faster .

in the same  time , i  had  promise  my  self   i need to  less contact to  you ,  if not   you will not  come and  talk with  me .  for a month   not  seeing  each other ,  i think , you will  4get  who  i am ? and  i can  dare it.  you will just  4get  me  just  like this . anyway  just let  it be ^^

chili padi girl

who am i ?!!  i  m  chili  padi !!   i will show  you  , who  am i !!  i cant take it  ,anymore  that  feeling   being slow, getting  nothing ,  i hate  the  result now ,  cause   i know that  i not  doing   much !! but   from  now , i will chase  it  back!!!  chase  back thing  that  belong to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i  belief  , 1  day    i will achieved  it ,  and  i show you my real power !  the  real   of me!!

chili  padi  girl  will  rock the world!!!!!!!!!!

YOU 'RE SO SWEET TO ME !!! BROTHER

OMG !!! ,  YOU   'RE SO  SWEET TO  ME !!!  BROTHER,  I APPRECIATE WHAT YOU  HAD DONE  FOR ME ^^  EVEN   IS A SMALL THING  , SMALL  REQUEST  YOU  JUST MAKE ME FEEL  SO SWEET AND  FEEL  GLAD  TO BE YOUR SISTER .LOL

 LONG TIME  NEVER HAD THIS  KIND  OF  FEELING THAT  BEEN  TREATED  LIKE A SISTER ,BRO  I GONNA  MISS YOU  SOON  LE,  I NEED TO  SHIFT TO  OTHER   BRANCH OFFICE  TO WORKING FOR A MONTH ! STARTING  FORM NEXT MONDAY !! I' LL  MISS THE WAY YOU  TREAT ME  , THE WAY YOU  SAYANG , LOVE AND CARE ME . SERIOUSLY , I WILL MISS  THE  FUN WITH YOU . WILL ALWAYS  REMEMBER   HOW YOU COME AND KACAU  ME AND  SAYANG ME  . LOL,  I STARTING TO  THINKING , HOW CAN  I  GET BOOKINGS WITHOUT  YOU  BESIDE  ME .  WELL,  I STILL NEED TO  FACE THE  FACT

 LASTLY  , I HOPE YOU WILL MISS ME  WHENEVER   I NOT  AROUND YOU, LOL  .  SOMETIME  I FEEL  DAMN  HAPPINESS . I KNOW  THAT  I LOOK ALIKE  WITH YOUR  SISTER AT  YOUR HOMETOWN , AND I  JUST YOUR  PET SISTER,.BUT DOESN'T  MATTER , FOR ME   CAUSE  I KNOW,  WHAT EVER YOU  DO FOR ME  IS  FROM  YOUR  HEART  ^^ JUST  LIKE TODAY ^^

need a peace moment .

what   is  my  mind thinking now ,   alot thing is Spain at  my  mind . i wish  i can   step by  step  to   handle  it . wow.. .. is ok .i wish    everything  will be peace  for me  for a moment  .  hahah .....

 yeah ,  i can de , who  am i  ? i m chili padi  i can do it  !  blek ^^   life still need to  go  on , say cheer ^^

不哭

揮霍多少時間 折磨多少痛苦
才累積出的領悟

忍住不哭 我要忍住不哭
望向天空不讓眼淚流出
抬頭看進雲深處 等待那日出
把故事結束 把從前一筆 消除
忍住不哭 我要忍住不哭
不能認輸因為 我相信 彩虹總跟著薄霧
會帶來幸福 在下一個叉路
陪我跳全新的舞


eavis +u ^^ 

想太多了

我蛮脑子都在想什么？？？ 为什么我的心情很复杂。我想，我想太多了。你可以不要让我脑海里出现你的名字。很讨厌，很烦啦！！！！！！！！！！！！！！complicated feelingความรู้สึกที่ซับซ้อนsentiment compliqué

nonsense

~!@#$%^&*()_++_)(*&^%$#@!~~!@#$%^&*()_++_)(*&^%$#@!~
 fuck you !!!!!!!!!!! commonsense  la !!! bitch women !!!!  one day  i will  use  1 whole  tack of  money and throw at you !!!

heart broken down

a terribleness   attitude there she make me  maid!!!!!!!!  already so many  thing i need handle  , but still you  give me  a kind of  black me to see , my dear sister ,   i just  your  normal  sister, please  control emotional  la .. dont  use  your  emotional   to  bang  people  , i fell  damn  heart  when u   say this to  me . heart  broken  just like this when i  hear  it .

wedding dress

teayang  - wedding  dress  . guys  must   go and  listen and  watch this  MV .

here  is  the  english  version   lyrics of this   song .   i love it  so much  . hahaha




Never should've let you go
Never found myself at home
Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door

You were like my beating heart
That I, I can't control
Even though weve grown apart
My brain cant seem to let you go

Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night
We use to mess around
Laugh and play, fuss and fight

(Pre-Chorus)
I guess its too late, Im dancing this dance alone
This chapters done, the story goes on

(Chorus)
Baby
Can't believe that you are not with me
'Cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free

But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress, dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress, dress
See you in that wedding dress, dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress, oh no

(Verse 2)
Snappin out this misery
Depression this aint me
But I always turn around
180 degrees

You got control of me
And I, I cant explain
Somebody call 911 Emergency
Before I go insane

Since youve moved on
You took a piece of me give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, heart attack
(Pre-Chorus)
I guess its too late, Im dancing this dance alone
It's too late

(Chorus)
Baby
Can't believe that you are my big me
'Cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free

{ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/tommy-c-&-j.reyez-lyrics/wedding-dress-(english-version)-lyrics.html }
But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress, dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress, dress
See you in that wedding dress, dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress, oh no

(Verse 3 - J.Reyez)
And I see you with your man
and it's hard to understand
If we belong, if I did you wrong,
where we even began
We would always fuss and fight
and it seems nothing was right
But I loved you girl and you were
my world but you'd never trust this guy
'Cause the things I do when
I'm on the stage,
they say I'm a superstar
You couldn't understand all
the female fans
and then we grew apart
And I just don't get when
you're acting like some other person
But I try my best to hold on
at the times when it ain't working
And everytime that you say
it's over it breaks my heart
and I don't know why
'Cause you've done it a lot
of times in the past
but I get back up and try
You said we could work it out,
how could you hurt me now
And you moved on to the next,
I'm left with an imperfect smile


But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress, dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress, dress
See you in that wedding dress, dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress, oh no

my lovely sis

this is my  sis ,  i need to   say  a million thank to her .  because  without  her , i cant  be  who am i  today .she   help me all the while  , giving me  support  to  finish  the journey  now .  she is best  ,  she  always help me  and give  love and care  while  i  sad  . i love you   sis, i  promise  you  i will  success , give  u the  best life  . i want spoil you   for this  for  life .  sis  , i will make this  happen . love u

ALC graduation

what is  ALC?  well,  ALC  is  stand for   Advance  leadership camp. for you  guys  information  i   the  graduation student  of ALC . ehehe.
during this 4D3N  , i  really  transform  and  found  back my   passionate of  keeping doing this business . whe   the camp started  , i form a  team   where  by this  team   is  the  people  that  i  don't know , all is  my  cross-line . but  because of  belief  this  team  get  foam up . and  we name  it FIGHTER group.    i  very appreciated   that  can  same  group with  you   guys  and learn  from  you   guys,  you  guys is  very best .  this  camp  make me   understand  that  a  statement ,  if you   today   have the  capability  u  will  survives in the  end , if you don't have  u kick out   by this  group or  society . i  m  reborn  form this  camp and    i will be strong  and   prove to you  guys  my  chili  padi   spirit !!!!   i will  be shine  at   Gen  X  international  stage  to   tell everyone  , who am  i !!!!!!!!!!!!  i m MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   just  go all  out !!!!!

烦！

烦！烦！烦！烦！烦！烦！烦！
too many thing   to stress , too many thing to  handle .  just  make  me  dont know  where is my  next step ? what can  i do  , in oders  for me  jump  out this   box ?  really  need a   mauna.  for my  self .   deep  thinking  , deep  breath  .   just  smile  to  over come it . and i know i can  do it.

sot sot day

don't  know  what   wrong with  me , my  mood  was totally was   up side  down . i  try to   talk to my self , not  to    emotional   be  rational . but  most  of the  time  , i knew that  my emotional   get  effected by  you .  because  you  , i will   be happy and  sad as well.  aiyo.  i think  i sot  7  dy .  know that   u not always beside me  and i  know that i cant  depend  on you  very much ,but  i just want to say   i 'm strong .  i m a  lady  which independent .cause  it 's my  life ^^ .   my  life still  will  go  on , even   without you .!!!!!!!!!! i 'm  the best of the  best .

sorry that i love you

真的很想和和你说对不起，你可以原谅我吗？ 原谅我那天一时错口，情绪说的气话吗？我真的亲手割破了我们两人之间的信任，把两年建立的一切都割破了。我很难过，可是却开不了口的对你说声对不起，我也知道你也对我失望因为我的那句话，你对我的付出和关爱却被我的一句话，很情绪的话破灭了。我知道真相我， 我十分难过，和内疚。

#好的事情　最後雖然結束　
感動十分　就有十分滿足　
謝謝你　是你陪我走過那些路#　

好的事情

休息是為了走更長的路　
你就是我的旅途　
都是因為你　我一直漫步　

想要跟你一起走到最後　
但我遺失了地圖　
誰給誰束縛　誰比誰辛苦　
愛到深處才會領悟　

好的事情　最後雖然結束　
感動十分　就有十分滿足　
謝謝你　是你陪我走過那些路　
痛　是以後無法再給你幸福　

好的事情　也許能夠重複　
感動時分　就算紛紛模糊　
不要哭　至少你和我記得很清楚　
愛　是為彼此祝福　

想要跟你一起走到最後　
但我遺失了地圖　
誰給誰束縛　誰比誰辛苦　
愛到深處才會領悟　

好的事情　最後雖然結束　
感動十分　就有十分滿足　
謝謝你　是你陪我走過那些路　
痛　是以後無法再給你幸福　

好的事情　也許能夠重複　
感動時分　就算紛紛模糊　
不要哭　至少你和我記得很清楚　
愛　是為彼此祝福　

不要哭　至少你和我記得很清楚　
愛　是為彼此祝福　

f* off

i was damn angry !! i was damn angry you . if you don'y want give me a helping hand or what please move away . please dont let me see your black face . seeing your black face , i still ok , but i cant tahan the way you talk to me . fuck off la i will double pay u in one day , your force me to do so !! i just want to be kind and be a nice person , but u make me my angle heart become a evil heart. hey to let you know , i can leave without you , u mean nothing me , my live will go on without you . please move a way with your empty promise , and your cb helping me . i doesn't need you .88 bro !!!!!

* i'm totally angry with you . i want you say sorry to me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mother fucker .

this is 艾薇丝

hi, everyone , long time no see , i'm艾薇丝。there is a long period that i dint back to here to update my blog . and actually to be honest to here , i had no idea to write . hahaha damn funny right . i know it 's . is ok doesn't matter.

so just let me crap around den the idea will just come hehehe. recently , i watched a few episode of this drama, is from taiwan - love you . cast by rain young and chang xiao quan. after viewing , i feel like want to fall inlove with the character. he so handsome , he just like my white prince , ngek~ ngek~ . OMg , just want to have this kind of Bf , which can do anything for me , and care about me . hahaha. but i know , god already decided who is prince , so i just be patient, one day i will get to meet my prince. =)

lifestlye designer. not graphic designer

everyone has their own dream and goal . and i also have my own dream and goal that i want to fright too. recently , i went to interview and i now i become a tele- sale executive . Thur this job, i realize alot of thing and it make me open my eye to another level. well , especially on health care .

but still, alot people will asking me , am i still doing Qnet / Questnet . Well, i will still doing on it . they is still some people misunderstanding with qnet . actually , qnet is a international platform where by can let me to present my self .is a a place for me to achieved my dream and goal in a short period of time (3-5 years). And the bigger dream i have now is become a international speaker , touch million of heart . using my own story .i'm creating my own success path for my future. and i belief that this day will come true . cause now i ready to become a powerful speaker.

seriously , graphic designer this pose it cant bring me to where i want to be .and it will just locked me to be poor . anyway , hahaha. .. i still a designer , where by i is a lifestyle designer . design your life to have a better life. design ur future. hahaha sound great right? yes. is sound great , qnet change my life , and i share this opportunity to everyone , wish that everyone can have a better life ^^

gonna to have a big boom

i recently don't understand my mom and don't even know what wrong with her. every time i stay at home , i defiantly will get F **** by mom. to be honest , i just feel what the fuck la. well, i admit that what is my mistake . but she like put others people mistake toward me , walo ... i cannot take it lo . it like too much dy . u can scold me or what ever when i did wrong, but pls don't mix with other people mistake on me . my bottom line are reach to limit. i really what i will going to do when she start again !!!!!!!!!! i MAD , just because of her . hahahahahahah

stop!! stop and stop!!!

可以停止追问我的男友在那里？我要重新申明我是单身！！！很多人问干吗不去找一个来人谈恋爱？可是我想说，我不要刻意找一个人来爱。因为是你的，该来的它会出现。加上本人这择偶条件及个人理念不一样。 因为我从来没有去找人来爱，多数别人追求我。2， 我看上眼的很少。哈哈哈.3 我现在没那么多时间去恋爱，因为我要建造我的未来前途与钱途。

其实我的择偶条件也很简单，好像郑嘉颖那样类

型就可以了。一点都不过分哈哈哈哈。我就是喜欢这样类型的男人，成熟与稳重的。当然爱我，疼我的也一定要啦。可是华说回来，他还是咬有钱，不是几块钱，而是要有一定的稳收入。不然跟他一起挨苦和饿吗？你说我现实，我也是那样说。爱情与面包，我还是选择面包。面包在现实中可以填饱肚子。

可是不管怎样，我的心还是找不到另一个取代你在我心中的爱一与分量。真的唯独你不可取代。依然深深的喜欢你。不管结局或答案会是怎样。不管未来和我共渡一生会是你或别人。but i belief , my future family is gonna like them , so happiness & sweet . ^^

爱上你

:如果说这世界 不够完美不够好
　　一定是在等我们 亲手给它变得美好
　　就像爱 看起来 会那么少 一定是
　　在等我们一起勇敢的寻找一起找到
　　一片片落叶 为开出个花园
　　手牵手捱过整个冬天
　　每只蝴蝶 为了飞
　　为了翩翩起舞 先做一个茧
　　:最美海岸线 总是要很蜿蜒
　　才足够让人忘返流连
　　你的身边 要不是
　　比天边还遥远 勇气怎么出现
　　H:当我终于住进你的心里 s小小野猫d
　　分享同一个世界
　　身后错过痛过漫长情节
　　都变甜美
　　:只有我了解 这幸福感觉
　　美得值得去付出一切
　　能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
　　感谢我每滴眼泪
　　:只有你明白 我有多珍贵
　　好得值得你为我改变
　　:请你继续温柔 交换我 灿烂笑容
　　一天一天 到永远那一天
爱上你有多幸运
　　像是天使的礼物
　　我们不要辜负这幸福 一定要更加幸福
　　如果爱 真的是 那么的少
　　我们就 一起守护我们得来不易的爱不被打扰
　　:一片片落叶 为开出个花园
　　手牵手捱过整个冬天
　　每只蝴蝶 为了飞
　　为了翩翩起舞 先做一个茧
　　S:最美海岸线 总是要很蜿蜒
　　才足够让人忘返流连
　　你的身边 要不是
　　比天边还遥远 勇气怎么出现
　　:当你终于走到我的面前
　　完整所有的画面
　　就算苦辣酸甜尝过一遍
　　只剩喜悦
　　只有我了解 这幸福感觉
　　美得值得去付出一切
　　能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
　　感谢我每滴眼泪
　　只有你明白 我有多珍贵
　　好得值得你为我改变
　　S:请你继续温柔 交换我 灿烂笑容
　　一天一天 到永远那一天
　　E:像是大雨过后晴朗的天 宽阔而耀眼 (H:宽阔而耀眼)
　　每个黎明都 需要有夜成全
　　S:往回看每兜一个圈
　　每一条迂回的曲线
　　H:都是为爱上你必须留的伏线
　　E:只有我了解 这幸福感觉 (SHE:oh my love)
　　美得值得去付出一切 (SHE:oh my love)
　　能够遇见你认识喜欢你爱上你
　　感谢我每滴眼泪
　　SHE:只有你明白 我有多珍贵
　　好得值得你为我改变
　　请你继续温柔 交换我 灿烂笑容
　　一天一天 到永远那一天
　　RAP:如果说这世界 不够完美不够好
　　一定是在等我们 亲手给它变得美好
　　就像爱 看起来 会那么少 一定是
　　在等我们一起勇敢的寻找一起找到

is timing to wake up

在马来西亚，什么都在起价。 汽油，电水，吃喝的啦都在通货膨胀！！ 可事人民的薪水都没有在起。 在未来4 年，房屋价也会在飙升4%。哇靠。这样人民怎样生存？ 老板为了达到节省资源，也开始减少人手，或OT没的加钱。可是在中国，每一个大学生毕业后都很难找到工作，走在大街大行随手一丢个水瓶你都会砸到一个大学生？！！！ 说回来，如我们道那里寻就工作，我们也未必可以找到工作，他妈的你想下那边的竞争能力那么强， 你那什么来比？ 他们一个月的薪水只有人民币500.也就是马币250 而已。 哇老！！！ 不管怎样， 是时候醒！！！！ 寻找你一个BACK UP PLAN 给你的未来吧。 这样的2000薪水也未能够用, wake up and smell the coffee, and look for a opportunity . the world is changing now , if you not work it on it , u will be replaced by other .

i just can't get enough

i like the black eye peas song - just can't get enough . life should not easily get stratify . we should keep improving from that . cause when the moment u say u enough and stratify with what you having now , you are totally stop improving .

i'm not stratify what i having now , that why i keep dream and work it on .life can better and better , even u already at another level . come on , i dare to dream and dare to build my dream !!!! and never let people to steal away my dream !!!!!!!!!! seriously i cant imagine my following 7 month m what is my life will be , as i know that is goonna be a fucking good life , cause with fucking lot of money !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like the song say ~ i just can't get enough !!!!!!!!

is all about me

when i on the way fly form sarawak. i was keep thinking what was huey ling told me before i fly to kuching . and i was keep thinking and brain storming my brain . all the journey till home . and in the end i get the answer , which is about me . there is alot thing where by no one can help on it . and there is only me my self can handle it . simple , why people very success, and why i still haven reach that level that i want it so badly . everything is about me . i need to know where i from and what i need in life , no matter in life or networking , i need a clear goal that guild me to the end . and there is me , and brand me new of me =) keep moving , i will success . cause success will belong to me . i know that my journey is different from others , and i need to give alot effort the only can get what i want . but nevertheless, i will never give up . know that i hard for a 3 /5 years and get enjoy 30. do what ever i want when i 30 years old.

Mother day

2 person that i need to say thank you =)

today is was my first time writing blog and early in morning - 5am . wao.... damn fresh my mind now , feel like to have a hot coffee while i typing my blog . =)

well.. there is alot memoried flash back in mine mind . today , i need to thanks to the person who make me recall back my self . first , i need to thank huey ling . thank today u wake me up , i 'm totally lost , and is you hint me back what should i do in here and help me to get back who am i ? where is the last time eavis ? the eavis which is full passionate , will do all out no matter in all condition and all the time will present the positive of me .but now , i too much of packaging my self , what i mean is , i hiding alot of sadness my self and act like i m steady .heuy ling , thanks you always be there for me when i need a light . =) u're my great mentor .

the next person who i want to mention is ben . today i received the E.U.E from you . after i read all , there is alot picture keeping from my mind . And all this s image is about how we build a team ,from a nothing till today . i damn appreciated that what you had done for me . thank you always be there for me , and believe in me .i know that i might nasty downline or friend . but still u accept who am i and slowly change be to be a better person . and i believe we will hold hand together and shoulder on shoulder to fright and achieve financial freedom together .=) there's alot thing that i cant just use a few word to describe you guys. and you guys mean alot to me. without you two , i can be eavis right now . i cant so confident to present who i am . love you guys very much

on processing change to somebody

eavis

我只知道那是爱

#你仍旧等待 并肩坐着就更精彩
把心都打开 让爱一点点走进来
哦~~ 哦~~~ 简单的意外原来
爱只需要真心爱~
我只知道那是爱 不然你不会这么快
发现我正在将爱 一点点说出来
哦哦哦哦哦~ 快乐涌上来~
哦哦哦哦哦~ 关键字是爱~ #

is a nice song , and is sing by fish leong . hahaha again i do a free advertising for her, you know my pattern and this is my career sick , hahaha. anyway it a meaningful song for me . lt make me reflect my own self , that 爱只需要真心爱, 关键字是爱. we have love people around us with heart , we cant just because sick of doing it or just because of our purpose then we love and care them . love care it not mean that way , is all about the heart . people can feel it , how u love and care a person .

love you guys ..........

yoyoyoy ... i just back from pahang . at there is damn chill and relax . just beacuse there is kampung everyone moving step are slow not like at city . and make me fall to slow mode . lol . anyway i back to kl , everything is back to normal mode .

during this trip , i recall alot thing . there is alot of memories during this networking journey . there has sweet , sour , salty, spicy and etc . where this a platform for me to turn become another person who more strong useful compare to last time. in here , not only i am chagging , i saw peoples changing as well with me . there also part of my partner in life who will reach the destination together . today i m strong is because i had you guys . today i'm improve because of you guys pin point out my weakness. if today i without you guys , i cant be who i am right now . together we create and change . =)

sorry that i loved you

this song is sing by Anthony , he is a Taiwanese American . Well , when i first time listen to this song , i get touch my his voice . at first i was thought this sing by a western singer , but is not . this song really impact and it alot to me , hard to describe all out my feeling toward on this song or my story . But i can say that , once you get hear this song , you'll fall in love at this song . and you will get know what i feel right now . hahaha not only the song is nice , but the singer also very handsome .... wakakaka. sound like i promoting him at here , well no choice, just because i'm networked , and i get use too =) hahaha back to the topic , there was a part of the lyric that i like it very much ,which is at the cores .

here is the cores of this song =) * ya , u can google and seach for this song . or even you tube *

For all of the time that I tried for your smile

For making you think that I was worth the while

So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand

That no one was there to take a stand

But then love love love made us blind

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through

Sorry I was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true

But sorry doesn't turn back time

For all that I have done to you

I wish that I could make it right

So sorry that I loved you

Sorry that I needed you

Sorry that I held you tight

And I'm sorry for making you love me and saying goodbye

For being the one that taught you how to cry

It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you everything that you dreamed

For taking it back when I fled the scene

Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through

Sorry I was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true

But sorry doesn't turn back time

For all that I have done to you

I wish that I could make it right

So sorry that I loved you

Sorry that I needed you

sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time

Won't make any difference tonight

But I'm hoping 'I'm sorry' will open your mind

To love love love, Love in your life

Sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through

Sorry I was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true

But sorry doesn't turn back time

For all that I have done to you

I wish that I could make it right

So sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I fell through

Sorry I was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true

But sorry doesn't turn back time

I'm sorry that I loved you

Sorry that I hurt you

I'm so sorry that I loved you

I'm so sorry that I hurt you

Sorry that I loved you

and lastly , i just want to tell you , sorry i loved you . no matter what happen or whatsoever , we fright till the end .and i believe that thing will change , but our believe will not change and trusting each other till the end . F.F way here we go . and there will be our last stop . and form that stop we raise to another level ,another story .

过渡期，就好像烧肉，中间的肥油

valentine's day .

valentine day , every one is celebrating , but who know the story behind ?? well , let me told you what is valentine's day .Saint Valentine's Day, commonly shortened to Valentine's Day, is an annual commemoration held on February 14 celebrating love and affectionbetween intimate companions The day is named after one or more early Christian martyrs, Saint Valentine, and was established by Pope Gelasius I in 496 AD. It was deleted from the Roman calendar of saints in 1969 by Pope Paul VI, but its religious observance is still permitted. It is traditionally a day on which lovers express their love for each other by presenting flowers, offeringconfectionery, and sending greeting cards (known as "valentines"). The day first became associated with romantic love in the circle of Geoffrey Chaucer in theHigh Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished.Modern Valentine's Day symbols include the heart-shaped outline, doves, and the figure of the winged Cupid. Since the 19th century, handwritten valentines have given way to mass-produced greeting cards.

valentine day ..every conner also jamming . well this year valentine 's day i celebrate alone le ....

a little bit feel sucks that i cant celebrate the person that i want it to . what to do .?? but i was thinking that why the whole , only celebrate valentine today ? why cant everyday is a valentine day ? this sociality in nowadays is very materiality, everything is talk about money ? a very simple example that i give is a valentine day . needed alot money on it . had to buy present , a candle light dinner . a celebration is consist of money , and the money decide you spend it in grand way or save coast way . but for me , if have money every day it can be valentine day =)

and i have a wish that , i hope that every single that can celebrate with the one who i love .

lastly i would like to wish , everyone happy valentine's day .

stop emo

everyone has they own emotional , but there is not one can control well they own emotional . i mo not saying my self that i can manage it well but just learning process.

well ..my beloved sis say that emotional there is a limit at there . but i doesn't agree at all. ya there is a limit over there , if is a serious thing happen over there . in the end is depend how u looking at this situation , how u think about it . never talk with emotional or ego. it will raise you up to the top and pull you down .

if you mature enough , you wont be using emotional as your main issue or even main thing . never use emotional to do thing .

I BELIEVE

when we is a child , we like to watch animate . but when grow up , we seldom to watch animate . and is a nice to when you watch it . Well this time i have a chance to watch back a small part of the animate - Alla din movie . there is part where by Alla- din bring his dream girl to sit at the carpet to see the world . And this make think back that 2 years ago , there is a person who bring me see the whole new world . this time i learn something from this clip again , which is believe the person who shake your hand . well ... glad that i shake his hand , i believe on him . but no matte how it is , how is the person bring me see the world , in the end my journey i still need complete it by my own self .
and here and a link , u may click it and see it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JSYToPT5SDo&feature=related



THANK YOU , LET ME SEE THE WHOLE NEW WORLD =)