out of control

i have to  keep   controlling  not  to think about  you ,  not  always come to  chat  to you . i dont want  other  peoples and  you   misunderstand  that   i  fall in love  u.   is  very  hard to   controlling , but still  have too do it. i know  that today  i  broke down  what i had promise  to myself , that no to  call you , chat to u   . just let be .  but  i found  out that  , i m fails  .T.T and i called u in the end . so  now  i  cannot repeat  it . i must keep  my promise !!!